I'm a prize, 100%, utter, f****** bleeding moron.
Basically, I just made a massive cock up. A while ago I decided it would be a good idea to write a "farewell" blogpost which I would constantly rewrite and which would be autoset to publish at some point in the future. The idea being that I would constantly move the publishing date significantly forwards into the future so that it would never get published until I was no longer around to postpone it.
Now, you can guess what happened. It published last night because I forgot about it in the aftermath of conference and catching up with my work. So, yeah, an incredibly stupid idea given that I should have known this sort of thing was a possibility.
I've deleted the post because I'm perfectly well and really, really did not mean for it to publish. I am an utter twat. Aargh. Sorry. Currently overwhelmed by how stupid I've been.
So, if you were one of the people who read that post while it was still online then I am really, really sorry for the distress or concern it may have caused you. And I am glad that someone cared enough to ring me up to find out whether I was alive.
But yeah, I still feel like the world's biggest idiot. So, right now I'm going to go to sleep before I have to get up again in the morning and continue feeling guilty for something so stupid. But, just to make it absolutely clear, I am not, and never will be, suicidal.
As I said, I am so sorry for all the trouble I've caused :( Please feel free to hurl abuse at me in the comment thread below if you were one of the people who read that post - I deserve it.